Upon to my friend request, i have to write this article.haha, he is not free to write his blog....
Sincerely, these few days were like a hell for me as i didnt do well in all the exam papers. Everytime when i looked at the paper, a lot of question marks will be appeared automatically. Even though i had do a bit revision, but i still cannot answer even one question. I feel so down, sad and regret too. I so hate myself why didnt do well preparation before exam, and why my brain's perfomance so slow, i always forget those facts that have memorized.
Sometimes im thinking negative, i think i shoud not alive in this world. It is worthless for me to live in this world. I didnt feel god is unfair to me, just i didnt try my best to catch the goal.
Besides, i want to take opportunity to thank my friend, really thank you. You had help me a lot when i was sad and down.. haha, i feel sory too coz sometimes im too annoying...but u never said me......
Lastly, i hope all my friends will stay happy and lucky, happy is the most important thing....
Now is raining oh, i wan go to sleep d. time now is 1.37pm. wuwuuwuwu...bye bye....

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i don't know why i will start blogging again, just want to find a way to express out my feelings. time flies so fast, exam is coming soon. i have studied at maktab around two months already. life here is busy like hell, loaded v many assignments and activities, everyday feels tired, unhappy, stress, moody....these r my true feelings....when alone at night, i feel lonely and no one is stay by my side.....i faced many challenges,...love, academic, family....all is challenging me.....i have no more strenghth to do something meaningful .....hope everything will be okkk. although yty 24octaber2010 is a ''memmorable'' day for me, but i still wan to be happy .......gambadei.....
"YOU CAN CHANGE YOURSELF, BUT NO ONE CHANGE YOU''

kk said my comment box spoiled already, so he could not leave comment for me. haizzz..yesterday i was really sad. his attitude caused me so sad. but after that he was regret and hate himself so much
because of causing me sad. no mood to type further already.................................will be continue in next time........................

HAPPINESS^^

How to find happiness???''Happiness is a state of pleasure or satisfaction. '' Whatever i do, i cannot find happiness. Many people think that money, fame, and beauty bring happiness, yet i am not totally agree with that. In my point of view, happiness can only be captured by a contented mind. I believe that if a person is contented with life, happiness comes easily. Happiness is actually being satisfied with things. Thus, i hope to be an easily satisfied person. This is due to an easily satisfied person is a very happy person. I should not easily give up. I have promised to myself.

Finally, i want to exclaim the meaning of happiness. Happiness is a positive emotion that keeps sickness at bay and makes life worth living. We must cultivate this state of mind as much as we can. gambadei!!!!

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i feel so dissapointed on myself. who am i???why im so useless?what is the meaning of life?? what is the value of existence of me in this world?? im totally lost. i have no aim. where is my soul???i feel like want to give up. i have no spirit to do anything. or in the other way , can say that nothing can do by me. now stop working already and have not enter college to study. omg, what the hell of my life........what if i unhappy ??what if i unsatisfy?? can i change all of these?? i will still remain unhappy. my life is dull and meaningless. who can help me??who knows my problem???who is the one understand me well ??i feel alone, no one can help me except myself. i feel down now.i hate my life now. everyone is on their way to succeed , but i have even not start yet. i do not want my life to end up like this , i will be regret. where is my future???i totally cant see. i need help ?? how to change my life????i should not complain, because im not qualified to do that. haizz, i have fell down into a deep and huge black hole.......

Christmas!!!^^

Long time did not blogging already. Before that was really busy with my job. Firstly, i want to say congratulation to my good friends at tarc ,kk and jenny. finally they can be together. They will be a sweet and lovely couple. I went to kl during CHristmas' Eve to countdown with group 2 members. i went to Kai Sin's house first. Afterthat, her father fetched me, ping and jenny to COSY PLACE at GENTING KLANG to have our christmas's dinner. After finish our dinner, we headed to Teng's house.We had fun that night, they drank beer, but i did not dare to drink ,hehe. They laughed a lot and played some games too. We got exchange present.hehe.Suen got my present, wish he will not mind because my present is childish and not very valuable. i feel damn happy because got a bear from Teng. The bear is really cute ,many of my friends grabbed the bear from me.haha.they said feel comfortable when hug that bear, especially suen .he kept act cute like a baby.hehe. The next day 25th ,we went to One utama SHOPPING COMPLEX to watch AVATAR. I highly recomended this movie. It is damn nice and touching. Unluckily , that day i was so suffer and moody. i got serious stomache and gastric, really could not stand. thanked Suen Jenny, and the others who took care of me. Then, we shopped at ONE U,they bought a few clothes. i just bought two shirts.hehe. I did not bring enough cash.i went back to Malacca on SATURDAY!!hehe. This 3 days 2 nights kl trip got happy and sad memories. yet, i will only keep those happy memories in my mind. and let the sad memories faded slowly with time.

haizzz

I think i cant view their photos anymore, because i will very sad. i cant join them in any activity. their charming smile showed that they are very happy. i never regret after left tarc,just miss them so much. haizz,but cant longer stick with them. haizzz, i will be forgotten in someday else. i hope can stand by his side and take photo with him. but my dream will never come true. he always far away from me.our distance is too long. i try my hard to avoid thinking of him,but evrytime failed. haizzzzzzzz,why why why???why he can stay so long time in my heart. i want to get rid off him from my heart. i think im failing in l...........v.....................haizzz,dun wan think about tis d. wil cause me more upset. i must build up my own life. let the past be the past. gambadei!!!